I Know :)

Baby fever is possibly the worst kind of sickness any unwed 21 year old female can go through. Honestly, my plan IS to wait another 4 years and then make some cute little babies, but the problem is I am so impatient! Is it ridiculous that I spend a lot of my time thinking about little boy names and little girl names? Or that I have decided what months I would like for my offsping to have birthdays? I think so. I know I'm young and have the rest of my life to have children; and I know I am not even close to being stable enough to having kids. I know all of these things, but i still have this horrible urge. I'm absolutely terrified that I'll die before i have kids, and that thought it self scares me more than death it's self. It's completely bonkers, I know. But i can tell you this. It's MY CALLING, to be a mother, I know this like I know that the sun will rise tomorrow. I know for a fact that if I don't ever put my hard work and sweat into anything else in my life, I will in to being the best mother I can be. This I know.

Also, I'd like to wish one of my beautiful best friends, Jennifer, a belated birthday as well as My little sister, Lily, a happy 20th birthday this Monday!